Road of Life

Being on the road of life constitutes a different form of love. I'm referring to self-love. But not in the narcissistic sense; rather, love that is understood in the context of self-value. With self-love comes the need to expand horizons, in response to the very real fear of living content within a bubble. This is the essence of self-love or self-value seeing life as one long journey to the unfamiliar, in order to come closer to grasping your place, your destiny in it. ~Justice Cabral

it's killing me softly..

Being broken does not mean how long you've been together but it is about how you love that person and you can't just imagine that your story has already ended. Here I go again..

Today, I can't think straight. I'm in pain and it really bothers me.  I lose the love of my life because said he can't take it anymore being in a long distance relationship. He gave up. I am tired also of his style, I am the one who always adjusting him. We don't communicate always because he is too busy, so I understand him until I have felt that I am not important to him. He does texting me everyday but it came to the point that he treats me like an ordinary person to him. I don't even feel that I am special to him. There were no more spark the way he text me and there was no special treatment anymore. Mka.feel biya jud ta if mamugnaw ang usa ka tao sa imu, lahi rman gd. I was also thinking the positive side that maybe he is just too busy out there. I have persevered these because I love him. It doesn't mean also na ni taas akong expectations sa iyaha, because we know that if we are in a relationship we should do our responsibility and to do such things to make the relationship work. I don't have nothing to say sorry to him because frankly, wala jud ko nagkulang sa iyaha. :'( Really. I did my best to be the best girl. Wala pod nko xa gisakal or gpasakitan. I just really wondered why he CHANGE. And if I am really important to him, he should show me some care and do some effort in order to communicate with me, coz communication is our only way to keep in touch but he doesn't. I may not using the right words to say these but I really feel so down and hurt. I know it's the end of my life, but it hurts to think that your future goals and dreams with him are now broken and will never be happen. And also those happy moments you have shared and cherished. So, I've got nothing to do but also to give up even if I still love him. I do still love him. :3 I learned some lessons after ending the relationship and also to him.

I hope you guys can bear with me right now. If you think that I'm OA and too emotional then let it be. Just bear with me. :(

Everything..

happens for a reason. I do believe that God has better plans for me. There's no need to rush. :3 I'll just keep my faith to Him. :)


God bless.

I am..

in a long distance relationship. :')


I'll do my best to whatever it takes. I hope God will help me through it and I do believe that everything will work. I know God has a plan for me. We both need to trust each other, be loyal, have faith and learn perseverance. That's it. God bless us, and let's keep our faith! :) ♥♥♥

My college days are exciting...

Exciting because I'm now in 3rd-year. My days are getting busier due to my major subjects. I don't have minor subjects anymore. We do always have an activity in my majors and lots of research paper works like case studies, empirical studies, life history research and proposals. In our research you have to go other places to conduct your research and gather your data. It's really fun studying different groups of people in our society. I've been to rural areas; Pugaan and Gitugum Mis Or. Went to the market and did a participant observation/study and many more. Another also, we've been teaching in Badjao community during weekends (by schedule). It's good when you teach especially when you really have that passion to teach. Well, me.. I think I don't have that consistent passion in teaching because I'm don't have that patience (sometimes :p) With addition also to my Sociological Theories subject (SOCIO118N) which made so furious. This subject is so hard for me, you need to read a bunch of theories, and it's sooo hard to absorb in my mind with all those unfamiliar phrases in my readings. You need to have a dictionary and a source from internet (or other source from your handouts) in order to understand the theories well. During exams, I am very afraid thinking that maybe I won't be able to answer all the questions and answer those bunch of essays given by our teacher. In order also to pass the exam, you need to have a complete content of your essay, you can't invented stories in essays which somehow I do when I don't know the topic is all about. Another exciting thing also is I became very close to my classmates. We do crazy things and crack some jokes. Our class is always fun especially during field-trips. We are vain, we always take photos and we even act like sisters and brothers. I got also new friends from other college because of friends of friends. I act so immature and stupid when I'm with my friends. How I wish we should cherish our moments together and have more bonding to have. I'm always wide awake during midnight. According to our rural teacher he said "It's time to burn your midnight candles". Which means our days will be busier because of major requirements. I hope I can make this; to do good in my studies and work well on my paper works in this semester so that I will have good grades.  I can't make this without God. He is my #1 inspiration, and also to my very supportive family; I can't live well without them,  my crazy friends and teachers. God bless to me, to you, to us. :)

18th BIRTHDAY ♥

I'm sooooo blessed ^____________^ :))

08/29/11

Happy and Contented

with my life now. Thank you sooo much Lord! You are amazing :)